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well, I don't know how many of you actually paid attention to this subject in previous journals, but for a long time I was smoking pot. About a week and a half ago, when I went to my doctor who refills my medication (as in pills for my mood disorder) he suggested I get clean. So he gave me a number to call, which I did, and as of earlier this week, I've started going to group meetings. I know it's good for me, especially knowing I have support from the other people in the groups.
My last smoke was last Friday, which means I've been sober for one week today. I admit I still have a slight urge to get stoned, but that's probably just because I'd been in the habit of doing so when Mom's not around. Really the only thing keeping me from doing it (aside from lack of resources and money) is knowing I have to keep clean for the groups. We each tell the counselor our clean date, and if I were to somehow get stoned, I'd have to start all over.
Plus I know that if I stay off it, finding a job will be that much easier. Of course I already mentioned to the counselor that I would wait until it's been 30 days, just to make sure it's completely out of my system, before I try harder to find work. That way I won't risk having to drug test before I'm completely clean, and getting a job will be easier.
I don't really know why I'm telling you guys all this. I guess maybe if I had support from people besides the groups, it'll make it that much less hard on me. I know a lot of you probably don't approve of stoners, which, I'm guessing, is why no one commented in the journal I made a few months ago about getting my cannabis card. Not that I blame ya.
I think the hardest part of this, is knowing some of my friends in real life still smoke. I know my brother definitely does. -_-
*sigh* even though I liked being stoned, I didn't like being a stoner. It's a part of my life that I struggle with emotionally. I both like and hate it...
My last smoke was last Friday, which means I've been sober for one week today. I admit I still have a slight urge to get stoned, but that's probably just because I'd been in the habit of doing so when Mom's not around. Really the only thing keeping me from doing it (aside from lack of resources and money) is knowing I have to keep clean for the groups. We each tell the counselor our clean date, and if I were to somehow get stoned, I'd have to start all over.
Plus I know that if I stay off it, finding a job will be that much easier. Of course I already mentioned to the counselor that I would wait until it's been 30 days, just to make sure it's completely out of my system, before I try harder to find work. That way I won't risk having to drug test before I'm completely clean, and getting a job will be easier.
I don't really know why I'm telling you guys all this. I guess maybe if I had support from people besides the groups, it'll make it that much less hard on me. I know a lot of you probably don't approve of stoners, which, I'm guessing, is why no one commented in the journal I made a few months ago about getting my cannabis card. Not that I blame ya.
I think the hardest part of this, is knowing some of my friends in real life still smoke. I know my brother definitely does. -_-
*sigh* even though I liked being stoned, I didn't like being a stoner. It's a part of my life that I struggle with emotionally. I both like and hate it...
ATTENTION ALL ACTIVE WATCHERS
I don't use this account for art anymore! The only times I've used this account in the last year is to let people know that I've moved to a new account. I don't understand why new people continue to add me on HERE when I've tried SO VERY HARD to make it VERY CLEAR I'm using a different account: ~CrystalRobot123 (https://www.deviantart.com/crystalrobot123) <--- THAT'S WHERE I'M POSTING MY ART.
Honestly the only reason I haven't closed this account all together is because of how long I've had it and how much I've posted over the years. But I'm VERY close to clicking the deactivate button and leaving it all behind.
I made :iconcrystalrobot123: for a fresh start, but it's kind of
How many times do I have to say it?
I've moved to a different account. Back in December 2016. I don't know why people continue to watch this one instead of the new one, which is ~CrystalRobot123 (https://www.deviantart.com/crystalrobot123) that's where I've been posting new stuff for the last 8 months. So go. Go watch my new account that I ACTUALLY USE.
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I SAID I MOVED! GO TO CRYSTALROBOT123!!!
I MOVED TO ~CrystalRobot123 (https://www.deviantart.com/crystalrobot123) so if you recently started watching :iconcrystalrobot: even though I've made it ABUNDANTLY CLEAR I'M NOT USING THIS ONE ANYMORE, I beg you, PLEASE go to CrystalRobot123 (https://www.deviantart.com/crystalrobot123) please. Please. PLEASE. I'm never posting art on THIS account EVER AGAIN. That OTHER account, however, I've actually been posting stuff on! Please, PLEASE go watch CrystalRobot123! again it's :iconcrystalrobot123: CrystalRobot123 (https://www.deviantart.com/crystalrobot123) :iconcrystalrobot123: CrystalRobot123 (https://www.deviantart.com/crystalrobot123) :iconcrystalrobot123: CrystalRobot123 (https://www.deviantart.com/crystalrobot123) :iconcrystalrobot123: CrystalRobot123 (https://www.deviantart.com/crystalrobot123) :iconcrystalrobot123: CrystalRobot123 (https://www.deviantart.com/crystalrobot123) :iconcrystalrobot123: :devcrystalrob
MOVE ALONG NOTHING TO SEE HERE
I probably should have done this sooner but I'M NOT USING THIS ACCOUNT ANYMORE. OKAY? I THOUGHT I MADE IT VERY CLEAR THAT I'M MOVED TO ~CrystalRobot123 (https://www.deviantart.com/crystalrobot123) REALLY THE ONLY REASON I'M LOGGED INTO THIS ONE RIGHT NOW IS TO CHECK MY MESSAGES AND MAKE THIS UPDATE. OKAY? IF YOU WANNA SEE MY NEWEST STUFF, PLEASE GO TO :iconcrystalrobot123: SERIOUSLY.
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Good luck on your recovery!